the four right chords can make me cry

argh.

i'm overbooked. messed up again.

4th: supposed to go make nametags. tuition in the evening.
5th: stompaids meeting at SGH. VCF FOC at NUS.
8th: PCC visit how? Dinner with family tentative.
9th: tuition, time not settled.
10th: lunch with JC classmates at botanic gardens. but supposed to spend day with hazel. how?
11th: tuition in the evening clashes with prep for USP camp. how?
12th: USP camp.
14th: kota kinabalu. clashes with CGL training, but tickets' already booked.

aiya. so disorganised.

today went to the PCC for a talk on addiction. and since it was geared towards aids volunteers, we focused more on sexual addictions and drug addiction, touching a bit on alcoholism and gambling addiction. society is certainly getting liberal, we live in a sick world.

the progression goes like this:
impulse -> compulsive -> addiction

i think i've been using the word "addiction" too lightly. addiction is not to be taken frivolously. its when you completely cease to function unless you have that thing, and nothing else matters to you anymore, not your family, not your friends, not your life. its so destructive.

if you suspect your loved one is starting to become compulsive, you should do something already before it progresses, before the physical and/or psychological dependency gets too deep a hold on the person.

i think addiction is going to be a serious problem in my generation. largely because addiction is not taken seriously. reference to drug use is so casual in songs (from brown sugar to smoke and a pancake). sex is cheap. computer addiction starts young. casino comes to singapore.

uncle david said something interesting today
"Singapore is a good place for you to have a good life. But it is not a good place for you to become a good christian."
hmmmm.

i learnt a lot about how to take drugs today! the pros and cons of shooting it up vs chasing the dragon. the various paraphenelia (spelling?) druggies need. different grades of heroin. different kinds of highs you get from different types of drugs. (stimulants, depressants, inhalants etc). how to spot a drug addict.

going through the list of things to look out for to identify a druggie, i realise i kinda fulfil some of em. Slow reaction. Very spaced out when you talk to them. ("huh? what you say?" 10 seconds after you say something). Reluctance to face mondays. Dilated pupils. Always very sleepy looking. Cannot walk properly. But for the record, i am not on drugs! heh.

come now becks, be serious. soon you wont be a teenager anymore.

in which case, i'm thinking, i should revel in it!

note to self: stop talking to yourself. ooops.

posted by beckyboo @ 11:30 PM